Sunday, November 29, 2009

A Stroll down .... lane

I felt my head ache before i ended work. It pains all the way till after i bathed. Even then i decided to go out anyway but luckily it ends after i finished preparing to leave. I dont rmb when is the last time i had a headache. Must be that im not having enough rest. Another excuse to rest more haha.

Went orchard to shop. Retail therapy rocks haha. Spend over a hundred not counting voucher. We walked from OC all the way to ion. Really happening.

Saw one guy doing pickup, and can see the salesgirl is interested. But problem arised when customers came. He just stood at that spot and waited for a few minutes that he went to look at the display. He was lucky the girl wasnt facing him. If she returns or see that the guy waited at that spot, his value will sure to drop.

The centrepoint and OC both have live band playing while u shop. Luxurious shopping exprience.

One woman crossing the traffic light last stop in the middle of the road and took pics of the cars with the headlights shining towards her. power.

Accident between a taxi and a lorry along grange road. Two police car came.

Fighting between malays at the walkway beside taka.

Found one romantic place in the midst of orchard. Nice venue to go on a date.


ARGGG WTF. TVD next episode air on 14 jan 2010. 0.0

Friday, November 27, 2009

Pain

I thought one night is enough to smoothen the pain but when the night falls again, the pain seems to reappear. When can i be free of it? It hurts.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Smile

"When you're in the market for shoes, you being to look at everyone's feet. When you decide to change your hairstyle, you look at everyone's haircut."

That is why exposure is important. When you are expose to something new, you start to notice things that you did not notice before. For example, if you ain't into photography, will u notice the possible nice shots either scenery or candid you can take when you are walking around? If you ain't into psychology, will u notice why someone is acting or behaving in this particular way?

So now, how will you increase your exposure? :)

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Angels Or Devils

Just had a talk with someone. I dont know what to feel but i guess that this is better for everybody.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Insights

Why cant our report writing be based on this kind of stuff? I will be more than happy to do reports then. The whole chunks of words before are mostly quoted from the book "Mind Powers How To Use And Control Your Unlimited Potential" - Christian H Godefroy. This book talks about parapsychology. Another good book introduced by my dad. There just so many good books with me but im haven have that strong a desire to read them all yet.. I had to type this whole thing out, made my effort worth while by absorbing something :) Here goes:

- For children, drawing is just like breathing - it's a completely natural function
For us adults, drawingis a gift reserved for a special few. Some people draw, some write, some think, some drive a truck. Thes kind of specialization, the division of tasks into categories, leads to the fragmentation of human beings. We become limited.

(Limitation isnt good. Think of ways to not become limited by life.)

- Negative opinions we hold about ourselves. For a long time I maintained a highly negative self image. Whenever I had trouble with my homework, for example, i would immediately conclude that '...I could never understand, I'd nvever suceed.' Of course that would only make the work that much more dificult.

(Like the author, i myself have tried my best to rid of negative self image. It happened only just ard a year ago. I noticed alot of people have negative self image, they say they will never and they can't do it too soon. It sort of becomes a habit for them. Why set an archoring point for urself? Ard a month ago, there is this particular negative self image of mine came creeping back to visit me. I almost lost the confident i slowly build up through the years. I was emotionally tired for that few days but lucky it had past me now. Not to self praise or anything, but some people say im smart. But to me, i dont think im. Not that smart anyway. If im smart why cant i get distinction after just read once through? ;) I think maybe because of not having negative self image, having confident and not setting limitations to urself, can make us excel in stuff that you do.)

- As Alexis Carrel wrote in his book Man And The Unknown, 'In modern society, most individuals are occupied with activities that could be categorized as practical. This is done out of ignorance, or because people are tricked into believing they must devote all their time to practical matters. Being weakminded, they submit to the infuences of environment in which they find themselves.'

Some people, on the other hand, are aware that they are being manipulated by big business, politics, culture mongers and so on.

Unfortunately, most of us are so preoccuiped with taking care of our day-to-day responsibilities that we rarely have an opportunity to make full use of our intelligence and / or imagination. We see young executives fresh out of university, brimming with new and exciting ideas, slowly fade as wthey are worn down by the rigid demands of the companies they work for. Their natural psychic abilities are soon extingusihed by the grinding routine they have to put up with.

(Think of situation where the environment infuences you. Why isnt it good? Or why isnt it bad? To me, weakminded people are not stupid people. To become strong minded, there's two ways that i know. One, read alot of self-improvement category books. Two, suffer alot of setbacks and recover from it. Alot, and i mean alot of people dont make full use of our intelligence/imagination. Including myself, i know i can be even more than this. The reasons, which most probably is the same for everybody, is we are lazy mentally. We give ourself excuses like theres too much sch work and stuff to do other things. Excuses like we need to concentrate on studying and get into a university. And therefore we are lazy to do other stuff, to think more. As you had in some way heard before, we only are using ard 10% of our brain capacity. Some use more, some use less. But it is still ard 10%. Dont u ever thought of pushing ur brain to the limit? Break the 10% boundary, maybe to 20% maybe to 50% or even to the max. Maybe when our brain reach 40% we can fly? How cool can that be. Of course this are all guesses, my point is to not limit urself and try not to be lazy. Im trying also...)

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Can't let go now

This isnt the time yet, to let go. This is just starting :) Though i dont have the slightest intention to let go, i just want to type it down. Chances like this dont away comes knocking on your door. I always thought this is reaching the end but actually it is a new beginning. How can i be so pessimistic then.. Tsk tsk. Also after watching TVD, i know if i let go now it will be selfish. I can't be selfish. Wht if...

(Stefan is going to leave town)
Stefan: I know this is hard for you to understand, but im doing it for you.
Elena: No. You don't get to make that decision for me if you walk away it's for you cause i know what i want. Stefan i love you.

TVD always make me go "Wtf how can this series be so good!"

Saturday, November 21, 2009

A Goodnight Sleep

Was totally worn out yesterday and only slept for ard 5hr. Today was basically running on reserved energy. It feels good working with a group of close buddies, we entertain each other like every single moment =) Sometimes at work, we really eat alot. Other then lunch and dinner there are lots of tea breaks, maybe supper and desserts. Meat, fish, chocolate eclairs, fruit tarts, sago, etc...

Just off work, going prawning soon! And i guess i will have a really goodnight sleep tonight.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Throw it all out

Dont u sometimes feel the need to throw it all out, throw it out until there's nothing left in you. U felt scare cause of the uncertainties that lies ahead. What if you threw something impt away when u do. U know it will be alot better but u feel safe now. Well maybe not completely safe, isnt thats y the thought of throw it all out came to u in the first place.

U shd throw it all out if u feel that u are sick of being in the same spot or going to be sick of it soon. No point being in the same old boring routine of thoughts or behaviours that head no where. U are not alive if u are not living. Live ur life and give it all u've got. Create ur future than waiting for it to happen. Good luck.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Im still laughing

Today's taboo game was fun! There's alot of laughing. Even until now im still laughing haha.

Was chatting with eugene and...

Eugene:
Catch her red handed for stealing my heart.
Lock her up in a special prison that provides special attention.
Then throw away the key to the lock and never let her leave.

Cheng:
My heart is missing, lost
Even before i can catch her
I hope she wont throw it away

Eugene:
I reach home and found out that my heart was stolen.
Never did I realised that the pickpocket is Her.
Now I hope she wont throw it away
just like how I don't throw away
the heart I stole from her...

Cheng:
Wonder how im still alive without a heart
No steady beatings in me now
Can u feel it thumping somewhere
Is it close or is it far
Love is all i have now

Eugene:
Its because of you, the food I eat becomes more tasty.
Its because of you, the music I hear becomes more beautiful.
Its because of you, the colours in my life becomes more vibrant and colourful.
Its because of you, that my life have meanings in it.
Its because of YOU, Life is worth living for!

My last laugh for today:

Eugene:
on top of me
Cheng:
lol
foating or resting?
Eugene:
ON ME
riding
LOL!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Broaden my horizon

Met up with GX just now. Accompanied her as she collects her stocks from her boss. Was abit jealous looking at all the qualatex in different colours in large quantities haha. Will be getting sempertex tmr. Then i can spam and do other interesting sculptures.

Where it all started

Suddenly my thoughts when back to where i started learning abt things not related to sch. It becomes a habit after that. My dad always inspire us to learn more, not putting that much an impt on sch results, just do wht we can. Therefore stress in sch doesnt comes from my parents but only the work itself and ur own desire to perform.

Sometimes u have to stop for awhile. Let ur soul float outwards and let it hover behind u, looking down and inspecting urself. Look inside urself. The soul floating isnt u now. Leave all the biasness and sentences that u lied to urself with the body. Observe as a spectator.
Are u escaping from something? Why are u doing it?
Are u trying to hard to be what u are not?
Are sad? Are u angry? Stop hiding ur emotions deep inside, let it out.

We are created with tear glands, so let it out and cry.
We are created with a mouth, so let it out and say.
We are created with arms, so let it out and hug.
We are created to make friends, so let it out.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Love

The Vampire Diaries is still freaking awesome. The show plays with ur emotions, and if a show can do that it is a really good one indeed. Their twist is just enough to keeps u interested and the show isnt draggy. *Thumbs up*

Love makes you evil
Love makes you good
Love makes you sad
Love makes you happy
Love makes you give up
Love makes you grab hold
Love makes you angry
Love makes you at ease
Love makes you stupid
Love makes you think
Love makes you believe..

Sunday, November 15, 2009

LT Attention

Yesterday SP mentioned the topic of a guy avoiding a girl. After doing some research this is wht i got:

1) know u like him, but no feeling, runs away
2) know u like him, but no feeling yet dun wan to lose a friend, draws line
3) know u like him, but no feeling and dun wan hurt ur feelings, stammer and being indecisive and shows signs of avoiding
4) know u like him, and got feeling, confess soon
5) dun know u like him, but he like u, shows interest in u and attempts to catch ur attention
6) know u like him, got feeling, yet unsure of how to confess
7) know u like him, but no feeling, yet feel like toying with ur feelings

If he knows and you're getting scary, like doing uncool childish stuff to get his attention it will be a total turn-off. Then probably he'll avoid you. Because he'll get scared and disgusted by your acts of annoyance. Girls are meant to be mature, cool and play a little hard to get. A bit like what you're doing. That's what makes the boy interested in you. Unlike a girl who is so accepting and easy for the boy to get. But don't play TOO hard to get, because if he likes you means he likes you.

Girls will never understand us guys

Well there are a variety of reason a man shows intrest then stops. Because I don't know the details of the situation, I'll just answer generally. A few reasons that I can give you are as follows:

1. He may have heard rumors (or truths) about you and your sexual history, which may have made him hestiant to persue a relationship with you.

2. He may have just ended another relationship and used you as the 'in between' or 'rebound' girl. It's not fair, necessarily, but many men feel that it will hurt them less if they have someone interested in them to 'fall back on' when they are recovering from a relationship.

3. Fear of rejection. Men face this obstacle as often as women do, and sometimes moreso because of the social pressures put upon them to be the active 'seekers' in the relationship. A lot of women don't realize how often men get rejected in social settings after they've finally mustered up the courage to ask a girl out. And it can still be nerve-wracking after you've been dating. Men have body issues just like women, and may be self-conscious about certain parts of their anatomy, if there is a sexual theme and they shy away, this may be the reason.

4. You may be sending mixed signals. Are you showing interest or are you being brash? Are you talking with him casually or are you flirting? Make sure that you are consistent with the messages you send, both verbally and physicall. I'm not suggesting you jump in the sack with him, but let him know that you're interested (if you are). Don't wait for him to call and ask you out if you'd like to spend time with him. Make sure that if you want to spend time, hang out, go on a date, that you let him know. Guys like a girl with initiative.

Also because guys don't have the patience to play the stupid games that girls want to play. The whole "mixed signals" and the "Now I like you, oh but now I don't" that a lot of girls frequently play loses the interest of men very fast. Not that men are purely seeking a quick fix, or don't like a challenge, but if a girl decides to play games, the guy will choose to move on to someone else who will make his time more valuable and less frustrating.

There's always new stuff to discover when i do research. Always love the "uh-ha" and "ohhh" moments. =)

Friday, November 13, 2009

Parapsychology

Attended a seminar regarding parapsychology. The speaker is someone from scotland. He is up on his age and shared with us stories and his own expriences on alot of aspect of parapsychology. It includes esp, telekinesis, clairvoyance, predictions, 2nd sight, astral travel, black magic etc. Interesting.

Sushi for supper again =) And im going to start playing and learning balloons sculptures.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Learning

Knowing too much might not be a good thing but it wont stop me from learning even more. When u know y someone does something even if he might or might not know can u blame him? My learnings told me u cant.

Part of the day, there's anger in me. Signs of it escaped at some moment but it was keep inside for the rest of the time. I was just really quiet. I guess this behaviour had developed naturally in me after i became more mature after puberty. Thinking back now, i know the power i had when i was angry, an uncontrollable power then can cause regrets. Silence and avoid the source of ur anger is the best way.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Happy Birthday Jolinda!

Met up with GX to help her take some photos for her name card. After that while we were waiting for Jo, she taught me how to make balloons sculptures! haha so fun! Jo came and joined us soon after and we passed her the presents.

My first teddy bear -.- one of the arms busted

This is "Casper" made by GX.


After that, GX went off to meet XM to run. Jo invited me to join her and her friend for dinner. =)

Casper was following Jo ard like this in public. Tsk tsk how brave he is to chase the girl he likes.


Jo has so many presents, so jealous. I like this bday card, it is really creative and touching. Almost cried after reading it, as if. Haha.




Monday, November 9, 2009

The Answer

My dad went all the way to jurong point to buy this book, the most i can do is to start reading it today!

Sunday, November 8, 2009

To buy or not to buy

List of stuff im thinking of buying at this moment:

1. Skateboard
2. Punching bag
3. Micophones with pop filter
4. New acoustic guitar

It has been so long since i had sushi. When my mom asked if i want anything for supper, i said sushi! So delicious. =)

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Belle

Today is so interesting, im starting to get the picture.

E F is so fun haha and i succeeded in O.

A gf 3 yrs younger than me is too young. Maybe not when im older but not now. Secondary sch girls to me are still too immature.

Stephanie and the long hair girl. i think u two will be in my head for sometime before i forget u girls. haha
Thank you!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Responsiblity

Making others responsiblity our own? Good and the bad.

Jamming tmr!

Alot of things to do from now to tmr before i leave for sch. But i need the slp also. Hai.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Dreams

The dreams i had while i nap are so sick. This will be the 2nd dream that shows a scene which im not sure is the future or is the re-run of the past or the past after the past. But this time, what happen is wht i want the scene to be like.
Is this some subconscious tactics by the brain to make me stay in bed longer?
Is this false reality a good thing, when i wake and discover that this is just a dream?
Has what happen cause me so much displeasure and a strong desire to change it create a false reality for me to escape to while i slp?

Dear Diary.

New

New Motto, new perceptive, new mindset, how about a new reality?

One of my mottos is put to the test today after i didnt do wht i had told myself. Learning from my mistakes, thus new motto is up to fully enforce wht i had told myself along with other things.

Things to ponder:
Shd i join GX to run?

Creating anger?
Creating saddness?
Creating happiness?

Dear Diary.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Anticipation

You will never know what tmr brings. So u anticipate. When u keep anticipating, u wont be enjoying today cause u will be caught up in preparing for tmr. Keep waiting for something to happen is anticipating. Why not make things happen. Today, be more observant, grab the opportunities and create the moments u are anticipating.

Dear Diary. =)

Monday, November 2, 2009

Hugs & Kisses

Opportunities. I realised i have miss one opportunity a few mins after i had missed it. This is a opportunity spotted too late. I suppose there are opportunities that i dont even notice at all. I thought i was observant, but now i know it is only one part of being observant. The other part needs more attention.

Be there. Be there even though the person has given up hope, when the person is struck in a place where they feel there's no escape from, be there even when the person betray you and almost get you killed. Just be there.

Friends help you find your way out.

If a girl is whining, complaining about something on and on and u cant even interupt her, just kissing her. =)

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Xtreme SkatePark

Today was alright. Even though alot of things went wrong. Xtreme SkatePark was too cool to not go in and try. Love it. How i wish i live near to ecp now haha.
At one moment while i was there, this little caucasian girl started talking to me. She was adorable. Today is her bday. She turned eight years old, and there is this "8" badge on her shirt. It is so brave skating at this extreme park. Her sweet little voice going "Do you want to go first?" and "Does it hurt?" makes me feel all sweet inside. How i wish most singaporeans would be like this.

Friends always make me smile and laugh. Cheers to friends! =)

Has been thinking and pondering abt something for sometime now. So if u see me stoning it is most probably me thinking of this somemore. Just intrude my thoughts it is ok.

Halloween

ARG. I nv celebrate halloween! Why didnt our sch have a halloween event or something. Will be going to miss it.


*Your lips keep moving but i dont know why.* Nice!