Blew it

Today was so fun. Together with Dianne, Guanlin and kenny, went kallang leisure park for ice skating and after that went bowling. We sure got alot of attention at the ice skating rink, i wonder why haha. I think luck went out earlier today. Going there was alright but when we were coming back, leaving leisure park, it was o.o.

Totally blew it. That was the ______ of getting a __________. Yea, i can see it happen now. But at that moment, i think i feel too comfortable in my _______-____. Hai... Even if it is better outside? I dont think so. Blew it! ARGG.

Maybe that is not my fate. A better ___ awaits? 10 _________ one? Haha hope so.

Why it didnt happen.
Option 1
1) No _________ (Why?)
2) Cause of my ____ (A cure?)
3) It too large a ___ (For it to happen?)
4) Study ______ (Why is it delayed?)
(This option is full of uncertainty and need a longer time supposedly. If accomplished, success is comfimed. It is more material.)

Option 2
1) Dont care cause _____ doesnt matters.
2) Fight _______ (How to?)
(This option is easier and the time needed can be 1 mins to 10yrs and more. It is all in the mind.)


Obviously im currently taking the option 2. But option 1 keeps surfacing itself and having conflicts with option 2. Option 1 has alot of other advantages so it is confirm that i will start this no matter wht. With necessarily things to do + going out + working + thing i like to do. It just takes time.

The problem is: I cant wait much long, im suffocating even though i wont die for it.

So wht is my plan?
Go sleep first. =) Nights.